good gods

will this be me someday?

dinner was done and he had said a bad joke. his father who is 97 and widowed and is starting to forget interrupted and said "something important happened to me once" and proceeded to speak of particular streets and my aunt tried to decipher and fill in what could have been and i sat there wondering.

to all the kind sirs

there were many but the last gift he unwrapped was a keyboard. he is six and struck the keys and everyone applauded. the brand name in the corner read kamawaki or was it kurasami? it got me thinking about the japanese and the men who work in factories. i pondered what they were doing as we unwrapped their gift. perhaps doing the same or manufacturing more instruments?

no regards

we are moving and as we pulled our paintings from the wall and created discard piles i couldnt help but watch the dog. she sat on the couch in sad resignation unaware that she is heading to new york or that i will no longer be her roommate. i couldnt help but reminisce about other animals i have lived with and think how odd it must be existing without jurisdiction over location. i wonder if on a rainy afternoon they sit on their couches and muse "ah, remember her?"

last night

there was a man outside the bar performing magic tricks. i only saw one, it involved expanding cocaine and making people say whoa! but we got to talking after and in the short time we conversed i found myself GROWING, he talked about tree frogs and how the earth looked 65 million years ago and ways religions go awry and i kept wanting to pipe in, like i know something too!, but couldnt think of what to say so decided to just listen. as i did he concluded with the opinion that whether you are a shaman or a saint or you play video games all day is irrelevant if you are not PRESENT in each moment. which made my heart sparkle for by ignoring my egos impulse and instead letting myself BE i was actually BEING a real living breathing being. 

i like

passing the neighborhood convenience store and seeing that this seasons detective blockbuster is being used to sell 

hot dogs.

it meant

everything.