jack said:

"hold still, man, regain your love of life and go down from this mountain and simply be -- be -- be the infinite fertilities of the one mind of infinity, make no comments, complaints, criticisms, appraisals, avowals, sayings, shooting stars of thought, just flow, flow, be you all, be you what it is, it is only what it always is."

my other side

people are always talking about how its ok to be different. but what about the notion that its ok to be the same?

freedumb

i used to know everything ... the time your thoughts where the broom is who was who. now i dont know much but i know it feels good.

i want to be [in]

what connects me to you.

new homes

at what point does the buzz of wine wear off?

does the film of love dissolve?

does the tide really recede?

does the dust officially settle?

at what point are you in transit?

when does the interim diminish

and you have finally arrived

and the threshold has appeared

and the swinging has ceased?

things people do:

watch tv

meet for meals

celebrate birthdays

have scary dreams

order extra ____

fall asleep on the couch

have too many drinks

pay bills late

take out trash

buy/use q-tips

take public transportation

commit crimes

build chairs

run laps

vomit!

bathe

trip

feed the dog

fly helicopters

whistle

fall in love

work all day

sleep all night

read in the dark

go on vacation

watch the clock

think theyre funny

think theyre fat

discover religion

drive through tunnels

stare in mirrors

talk about others

attend funerals

exit buildings

drink milk

paint rooms

play soccer

call cabs

swallow gum

eat apples

feel guilty

file taxes

crash cars

kill bugs

play music

tell lies

clean plates

forgive

follow

fuck 

struggle

steal

wonder

compile seemingly mundane but to some necessary lists of things people do to remember we all do them, even you do them too, and even if you have black hair and i orange and you live in uruguay and i here we are one in the same, we have something that connects us, and even if you wouldnt like me or we have opposing taste in shirts there is little difference between us besides these silly things.

earthquakes

i wonder when it happens will i just put my stuff back up? will my soul crumble with the bricks? will i have time to call my mom?

cigarettes

better in thought.

modern amenities

watching grown men and women "act" like lesser versions of themselves in order to relate to the masses who in turn become lesser versions of themselves in order to relate.

the thing about technology

is that the more acquainted with it you become the more you feel you need it. but more than a man money minute or magician it can disappear without warning and you are left with that special sourness that comes with knowing better.

things that make me fidget:

property tax 

lump sums 

stocks/bonds 

strip clubs 

strip malls 

government buildings 

government men 

THE CAR 

today

i left home for the second time in my life and found it was no easier. by home i mean the place i was made and by no easier im saying 

i still had to cry.