haiku #4/"beauty"

despite what you say
its only definition
is ones emotion.

blur says:

"im not that good but im not that bad."

the love document

haiku #3/"the bottom"

sometimes i enjoy
being at my worst. nothing
to be but better.

haiku #2

a child discovers
whipper snappers in the street.
I do not approve.

second opinion

by viggo mortensen.


The rain is infected
with bacteria
from secret experiments
of lonely men
and women.
It is that time
between winter
and spring
that is dismal
and threatening,
when the city
is airing its sweat-
stained corridors,
opening its arms
and legs imperceptibly
for an hour each morning.
Calm voices give whispered
instructions and hands
flutter
in the streetlight
hiding animal faces
that glisten
with swollen
red tongues.
Quietly,
they devour
each other.
Grateful
spasms,
violent motion
of interlocking,
clawing,
taunting.

as i am

as you are

perfect: (adj) 
1. having all essential elements
2. excellent in all respects
3. utter or absolute

SPACES part 10

SPACES part 9

absolute truth

milo says:

"that person is another person, as i am a person."


which we know, and we were drunk. but it reflects, i feel, some crucial core.

startled into life like fire

by charles bukowski.


in grievous deity my cat
walks around
he walks around and around
with
electric tail and
push-button
eyes


he is
alive and
plush and
final as a plum tree


neither of us understands
cathedrals or
the man outside
watering his
lawn


if I were all the man
that he is 
cat --
if there were men
like this
the world could
begin


he leaps up on the couch
and walks through
porticoes of my
admiration.

my dream #1

i dont remember but it was apocalyptic. i could barely see but what i could kept changing based on what others decided for me ... the smallest and most careless act on others parts greatly affected me -- i marvelled at my insignificance.  

his dream #1

a little girl he knew was being h(a)unted by THE BLACK MONSTER. THE BLACK MONSTER was a blank faced hooded figure who visited in sleep. she was h(a)unted by THE BLACK MONSTER because of a necklace she wore, cursed?. it was understood that for THE BLACK MONSTER to go away she would need our hero's help. so he waited outside her room until just before she slept, then entered and confronted. he had to say formal things like "i must insist you leave now" and wait until HE did.


did HE? i am curious.


he thinks, but isnt sure. he awoke just before it finished so repeated it in waking. to solidify the deal.


on this topic in retrospect he says "it was going to be a battle. i was appointed this duty, and was going to follow through."


i hope it did the trick.

osho's ten commandments:

1. never obey anyone's command unless it is coming from      within you also.
2. there is no god other than life itself.
3. truth is within you, do not search for it elsewhere.
4. love is prayer.
5. to become a nothingness is the door to truth.
   nothingness itself is the means, the goal and
   attainment.
6. life is now and here.
7. live wakefully.
8. do not swim -- float.
9. die each moment so that you can be new each moment.
10. do not search. that which is, is. stop and see.