it wasnt 5 years

(but 3) but we sat in his room in a party for her just the 3 of us (but 4) drinking wine and her juice and celebrating the night. 

2 out of 7

its just not enough!

starforce of earth

said his back as he left, he walked like a 

gremlin and had a face like one too

that reminded me of zachary,

why do homeless men always?

he asked for a cigarette and she gave one and a light 

and as he tried to get it lit the scent of flowers flew by. 

i smiled, 

a pile of shit sat on the sidewalk but flowers were flying and 

finally he lit it and smiled so sincere i felt like

dying in the street.

"well thanks!" he grinned and gremwalked away, 

he wore a mechanics jumpsuit  

that said starforce of earth.

down the street a guy tried to skateboard, 

he kept falling but trying

which i feel says

alot.

then the flowers went away

and the city smelled again 

and the clouds covered the sun 

so we stepped back inside.

sometimes

when hugging my boyfriend or other little creatures i fear i might murder

on accident of course.

vera

helped me, she asked how i was and showed me the shirts and said shed hold them for me even though id been dishonest ...i tend to fabricate in unnecessary situations so said it was for my sister, she didnt know ive never had one so said shed put them on hold and i continued to browse and decided if she asked my sisters name was Tiffany, shed be blonde too and older than me and maybe work in an office and go downtown on weekends... then vera got a call and stopped talking to me so i thanked her and left. on my way out there was a mirror, i always look so dirty even when im feeling clean and walked past a man who looked at me surprised and said "today is better than yesterday" and i first thought what the fuck then realized he was right ... its always moving never waiting always changing based on you.

the more you say it

the more you are.

where the papers go

in the back of the drawer with everything else i hide. there are many buttons to touch and my hair is clean but there is no one to touch it. in the back of the drawer with everything else i hide, this is where the papers go.